SWEET JOY. Always Remember Me.

Has been a long long time that ive posted.
Well, tbh im a bit too lazy to write everything that has happenend in the last 2 months in this post haha. But yea.
In the beginning it has been really hard - to make friends and to keep up in school. There were days I just wanted to go back to Berlin, giving up. I cried a few times. But everytime these thoughts and this self-doubt came up, I thought about everything ive done and tried to figure out what I should change. I realised that is all about what I do and if I want to do this and want to achieve everything I want. I will have to believe in myself. You have to encourage yourself again and again and just try your best. Ive done this and I can tell that I wouldnt want to go back now. School is still hard though. Ive cried a few times because of all the work.. I put too much pressure on myself, I know, its so unnecessary. But somehow its ambition as well. I want to achieve good marks at the end of this year.
Im lucky that ive got such a great hostfamily. Alison, Antony, Zoe and Phoebe are totally lovely and Im really happy to stay with them. I feel so welcome and have settled in really well. They all became important to me and I can tell that I see them as my 'new family' here, in England.
I also made really good friends in school. Helena, Kirsten, Maria, Kat, Nicky, Annabelle and and and. They make attending school liveable :) And they really do care about me. I cried on Friday before halfterm. Had a terrible headache and my biology test wasnt that good. I didnt want to cry, but Kirsten hugged me and then I started crying. Everybody came around and comforted me and kept saying things that made me feel good again. Or they offered me sweets and reminded me of halfterm. And then they hugged me and I was okay again. I wouldnt know what to do without them..
And then there are the other exchange students. Im glad to have get to know them all! Simen (oh dear, longlong story to tell about him. have had a weird friendship with him.), Martina (my honey), Pascal, Daniel, Jachym, Michael, Steffen, Fabian, SABRINA!.... After this year I will visit them all.

Ive been to BRIGHTON on Sunday with Nicky & Helena. Has been a lovely day and I enjoyed the beach really much. Love it there and I hope I will go there again soon.
Yesterday has been a wonderful day out in LONDON with Sabrina. I love her so much! Im really thankful for having get to know her. She's the one I can tell everything and with whom I can talk about everything. Im so glad that she stays here with me. Sabrina is such a good friend of mine. It is always so much fun with her. London yesterday was amazing. We will go there this week again I suppose. I LOVE HER. I hope we will be friends forever.!

LONDON - Oxfort Street is AMAZING. Love H&M, Topshop, Zara, Dorothy Perkins, Primark....... everything. London is just WOW. Will go there more often. I so love this city. AMAZING.